Oh but he

He says he's trying to convince me

Convince me he's a keeper

Little does he know...

He's the one that needs convincing. 

The tender way he glides his hands across my face

The way he gently tugs on my lips when he kisses me

The soft way he holds my hand

He's got me

He's got me wrapped around his finger

As I drag my fingers ever so softly along his shoulders, relaxing myself as I drift off to sleep

I feel the tips of his fingers along my thigh. 

Just to know he's sleeping inches away from me keeps me safe

To sleep alone is torture to me. 

He is

His energy is amazing.

His smile is stunning. 

His laughter is contagious. 

He has no idea..

He's refreshing and kind. 

He's like a cool breeze off the beach. 

He's a crisp spring morning. 

He's an early sunset in the fall. 

Hearing his voice makes me smile and my heart dance. 

Wanting more than a hug...

I want the sly glances across the room... the ones that last all night across the bar... the glances that turn into smiles the ones that leave you hanging as I walk out the door....

I want to turn around and see you chasing me, wanting me to stop... as I keep on walking...

I want the glances that turn into walking side by side and hand in hand....

I want the hugs that turn into long  kisses...

I want the long kisses that turn into waking up with your arms still around me...

I want more than your hugs...

I don't think I have ever felt so alone. He's in every thought I think in every breath I breathe in every beat of my heart. I miss him so much.

The only thing left of me right now are my tears... And I'm sure he has no clue

I wonder

I wonder if he thinks about me, if he knows the impact he's left on my heart.
Probably not.
He always writes about her, about this person who I'm sure made a big impact on his heart.
I wish he knew I would take away all his pain and turn it into happiness.
If he only gave me one chance I would turn his world around...

Everything

They say everything happens for a reason, but how come we never know the reason? Broken hearts.. For a reason. Being late for work... For a reason. Fights with your best friend... For a reason. I want to know the reason...

When he crushed my heart, I didn't get a reason I just got a lot of sad days, a lot of tears and a lot of mornings with swollen eyes. I know I can't make him love me but I wish I would have at least known what he felt or if he felt anything at all.... I just got silence.

Silence is the worst answer I could have gotten. I would have at least liked a fight better, a reason, something would have been better than just the silence he left me with.

just him

Being noticed every time I walked thru the door sent chills down my spine, my heart was beating so fast I thought my chest was going to explode, being noticed every time I walked thru the door was the highlight if my evening....

He left me smiling every time. My heart tingles even now at the thought of him. He makes my teeth sweat, ha ha. I miss the feel of his hands on my body, the touch of his lips on my neck, the simple caress of his hands. I just miss him.